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Tears and Rain

May 6th, 2008 by · No Comments · Uncategorized

Summer of 2007. We were preparing for the Mongolia Missions trip, everyone spread out across the living room. On couches, on the floor, lying across each other. Listening to my pastor talking, listening to him becoming slowly frustrated as none of us were responsive. We were fidgety, sitting for hours did not suit us, everyone’s minds had drifted far off.

Break time. He went into the room, flanked by them, the rest of us slowly followed. The light sense of freedom, laughter, soft music being played in the background. But no one could deny the tension, the uneasy glances that we flicked at each other, only covered by our need to seem close, unbreakable as a team.

We separated for the night. Getting up, turning off the lights in the other room, making sure they were all tucked in, not too tired the next day. Strict orders of the pastor. I headed back to my sleeping quarters, body tight, how would the night progress? We sat in a circle, applying lotion, allowing ourselves to get comfortable in each other’s presence. Wary tones were glossed over with sugar and honey, practiced perfection. Laid down for the night, talking, barriers had been lowered. Cautiously letting ourselves step over each other’s boundaries, tension eased and it soon nearly effortless. A mistake on our part, the easy conversation was turned against us..in time.

Normal talk; boys, crushes, first kisses. Reassurances were placed, I was not interested, she had a boyfriend, we would respect the third’s liking of him. The boundaries were silently drawn. Tears and Rain played in the background, we allowed trust and companionship seep in. Soft moonlight shined down into the room, peace resounding silently through the room. I drifted off, the song gently coaxing me into my dreams.

The night made the betrayal all the greater. How did it all go so wrong?

Creative Writing 2

April 16th, 2008 by · No Comments · Uncategorized

2nd place for Duo Acting.  Guess I’m pretty satisfied.  Even though I’m not going to Las Vegas T.T

Okay, so I’m still not sure about what I should write about, I need to finish that story but don’t feel any particular inspiration at the moment, maybe a bunch of coffee and doughnuts will help(:

So I have to do

1) Geometry homework

2) Study for that bio test o_o

3) Finish up the wikispace

4) Do my world history homework (I don’t know what it is yet)

5) Record trailer

Animal Farm

April 14th, 2008 by · No Comments · Uncategorized

Okay, I’m going to make this quick since I really have no time.  We had to write something about “Animal Farm” for homework on our blogs so um instead of writing about it I’ll show bits of the actual movie.  These are the ending scenes.  It’s quite scary and they did change the ending a bit, they went into the time after Napoleon’s death and the book never wrote about that seeing as to how George Orwell died before the Russian Revolution was over and Stalin’s rule was over.

So anyways these are the videos.

(I just thought I’d post up the trailer first, it does give off a rather comical tone)

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Part 1 of Ending.

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Part 2 of Ending

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That’s it!  And I must go

kthxbai

Creative Writing

April 9th, 2008 by · No Comments · Uncategorized

So currently in club block, “Creative Writing” (thus the title) and I’m sort of freaking out here. NFL (National Forensics League, I don’t play football) is this Saturday and my partner and I are really unprepared. Great. We want to go to Las Vegas. We want to win, I mean, who doesn’t want to win and get a free trip to Las Vegas? It just seems that our laziness overrides are desire to win. And duo acting is not exactly easy, it’s difficult, expressing your character, getting the right emotion out there, keeping your face straight. And interpreting the story, your character, and wondering how I should say this line or how I should react to that line. I feel like I’m over analyzing and that we’re not going to do so well. I have a new found admiration for actors, both Hollywood and Broadway.

Sigh must be positive. Must think positive, MUST PRACTICE. MUST PRACTICE. But it’s really frustrating because we have homework and projects to do, tests to study for, and Michelle has swimming practice after school. So, really, we have no time to practice with the teachers and hardly anytime to practice at all. Ah, joy. And I so desperately want to go, I need something “cool” to do during summer vacation. Not just laze around at home all day. Okay, so the competition is getting to me, some groups are really good, sigh. And the judges frustrate me, they don’t look at the acting, they look at the script, they look at what school the person is from and make completely biased judgments. Last time during the finals they didn’t even take notes or grade each performance, they just decided what group they thought were the best or most impressionable. In fact, the last 3 groups to go one 1st, 2nd, and 3rd place. The last group to go won first place, the second to last group to won 2nd place, and the third to last group won 3rd place. THAT IS SO WRONG. If my group had gone last then that means we would’ve one first place. WHY. It’s frustrating, how are you going to decide who the real winner is if the judges aren’t judging fairly or correctly? There’s no point in the competition then. Dang. I’m so frustrated. Urgh.

Whew.  Really must practice.  From the beginning Michelle and I desperately wanted to go out of this country for speech and debate.  At first we thought we were going to New York but Las Vegas was just as good.  And now that it’s only a few days away guess I’m getting a little nervous and jittery.  But really, yes.  Feeling a little unsure but hoping we can pull this off.  2 days, some 48 hours, we have time to practice.

Greatest Performance Ever.

April 6th, 2008 by · No Comments · Uncategorized

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DID YOU SEE THAT?

Was that not THE GREATEST PERFORMANCE YOU HAVE EVER SEEN?

Look at how much the music industry has declined.

Sad:(

So Cute

April 5th, 2008 by · No Comments · Uncategorized

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Possibly the cutest thing I’ve seen in awhile.

Youtube

March 31st, 2008 by · No Comments · Youtube

Wow. First day of spring vacation and it’s already getting to me. My second post in one day.

Anyways, so I was surfing around Youtube. It’s such an interesting site because theres this group of people that rule the site, and this group of people are close friends. And they first met on the internet. Like wallofweird, toddly0, residentmikelee, mongoos (something), are a group of people, all similar in ages (somewhere around 18+) and they spend time together on skype, making videos, etc. I was just thinking about it and realized that these people are so old, they look like highschoolers, people my age, but in reality they’re in college. And so it is with most “stars” on Youtube. It’s a certain age group that leads this site.

So I was flipping through the “fiveawesomeguys” channel and I was watching Tuesday’s video on internet relationships, and he said something that was quite interesting. He said that it’s harder to get girls off line then online because he’s a nerd in real life so girls just aren’t interested, or he isn’t able to find a specific topic to talk to them about. But on Youtube it’s easier, etc. etc. not the point I’m trying to get at. Er, so the point I was going to mention was this, just how different are people from online and offline? I was looking through KIS blogs and this person I knew came up, and he sounded so different on his blog then what I first perceived him to be. From what I saw on sites like Facebook, or in real life, etc. I thought he was someone easily bent by society, someone who didn’t think much but was willing to do anything to fit in. And as most teenage guys go, someone who was perverted, shallow (my apologies, the stereotype might be an insult to some). But as I was looking through his blog I was like, “wow, this guy actually thinks.” This just wasn’t how I saw him, it just wasn’t how he acted in real life. In real life he struck me as a quiet, submissive, empty-headed sort of guy. Okay, this is frustrating, ah I’ve got it, someone looking for popularity. I don’t get it, how can I see this guy online and see someone completely different off line? I mean, the blog entries are obviously who he is, a deep sort of guy, (although I can still see a bit of the perverted, attention-seeking aspects). So why are people so willing to be open on the internet and so closed in real life? Maybe because on the internet there often isn’t too much popularity or pressing aspects. The internet is so open and free, it’s like a channel for people to spill themselves out of. And in school-life, or society in general, there’s just so many rules, so much oppression, a certain image everyone needs to be. Of course the rules of society are carried into the internet, just a little bit, but the internet is still like a rebellious place. Like Mr. Spivey said during class that rebellions are always going on, and now it’s the Internet Rebellion. So this is how I’m going to look at it, current society is the master that is oppressing the people and the internet is the great rebellion taking place among the oppressed people, the peasants. Hm. Interesting. I remember seeing this video on Youtube where these group of film directors said that they would post their movies up on the internet, because Hollywood just wouldn’t accept their scripts/movies. Society wouldn’t accept them so they turned to the internet. And also there’s something else called the Nerdfighters, basically nerds gather around and show themselves for who they are, NERDS WOOO. Sorry. Anyways, my point being, nerds have never actually fit into society, so they turned to the internet. And a few of those nerds are pokemon obsessed:). Go nerdfighters. And so on and so forth, Youtube is a place for interesting people who have been slightly smuffed by society.

And you know, I hate Korea because Korea is such a conservative place. They’ve bought society’s standards and refuse to change their views. They refuse to accept different people, they refuse to accept the fact that there might be more to life then being “pretty” or having double eye-lids (ugh) or getting like 100% on tests. Lighten up, there’s more to life.

And I hate KIS as well. It is SUCH a frustrating school. There are people spotted all over that are different, who actually think, and yet in school they only show this one shallow side. And I have no idea if this is making sense, but KIS’s society is so rigid, you’re not allowed to be different, not allowed to be weird. And if you want to be weird you have to be a certain type of weird. Okay, I’m convinced that I am not making any sense at all, but whatever.

Anyways. Yes. Here’s the video that started this painfully long rant.

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Thanks for the inspiration Charlie.

Currently listening to Vaguely Live Radio Podcast.  Alex and Jimmy talk (imagine the word here) for 30 minutes a fortnight on VLR.

Spring Vacation

March 31st, 2008 by · No Comments · Uncategorized

Feeling very uncreative today.

So it’s officially spring break, yay.  I’m wishing I could go to Starbucks.  Still have to finish Sense and Sensibility, I promised myself that I would finish the book before I watched the mini-series on Youtube, but, eh, didn’t keep my promise.  Yesterday at 3 in the morning I turned on my computer to watch it.  I kinda, sort of, maybe, okay ruined the ending for myself.  I rule.

1) I would love to take a knife, stab it through Willoughby’s heart, and watch him die. (as of page 175)

I am very aware of the fact that I sound like a psychopathic killer.

2) I think Colonel Brandon is zuberawesomeful, although the 2008 version makes him look like a stalker in the first few scenes.

3)  Edward Ferrars is a worthy character.  His shyness, slight unstableness, kindness, and loyalty of heart is very admirable.  Why can’t all men be like him.

So yesterday:)  I woke up late, my alarm didn’t go off and at 6:59 I scrambled out of bed.  I needed to get to church by 9 and it usually took somewhere around an hour and a half to get there.  So I freaked out, ran to my parent’s room in hopes that they would sympathize with me.  In the end I rejected all of their offers, think I just wanted them awake so I wasn’t completely alone.  Instead, I went on an early morning sprint to the subway station and managed to survive till lunch with a cup of coffee for breakfast.  My students thought that I was a university student (?) and I realized that Korean society is pretty messed up.

The conversation followed as thus.

(After being asked: How was your week guys?  Why don’t we go around and tell one good thing and one bad thing about our week) Very generic question, I know.

Student 1: My week was normal…But I didn’t do very good on my test so I’m very sad.

Student 2: Me too…I did really bad.

Did I mention that they’re still in elementary school?  I know I’m not exactly the oldest person on Earth, but wow.  Had I been asked that question my “bad part of the week” would be that I didn’t get to play with my best friend on Wednesday.  So this is what Korean society does to kids.  Absolutely phenomenal.  Good going.  Really, no sarcasm intended.

Complete

March 26th, 2008 by · No Comments · Uncategorized

Well, phase 1 is complete.  It’s so different here, watching how we personalize this place is going to be interesting.

2 months until phase 2 is complete.

4 months until phase 3 is complete.

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March 19th, 2008 by · No Comments · Uncategorized

Phase 1 will be complete in 6 days.

Things are moving too fast.

Slow down life.